Radiation is officially over!

Today was my last day of Radiation. I did 33 rounds of that beast.  I went everyday- Monday through Friday for six and a half weeks!  Cray Cray!  My skin has held up well. I am very burned- it is disgusting!  But I should heal up in the next week or two.
I am so thankful for my RADS Team. My team took such amazing care of me during my treatments. The wonderful nurses and staff also watched Stella and Skylar for me when I needed them too!

Also, thank you to my family and friends for watching the littles while I went to RADS.  I am very grateful for my family, friends and all the wonderful support that I have!  Thank you a million!

So now I move onto my heart..  I have to redo all my heart tests to see if I will need to have heart surgery to replace my mytral valve. Hopefully I will not need heart surgery and we can move onto my big reconstruction surgery in six months or so. If I do need heart surgery then my recon surgery will obviously be put on hold. I can not do any surgeries for at least six months due to the damage radiation has done on my tissue and nerve endings. I have to let my skin and body just try and heal a bit before more trauma hits my body.

It has been a crazy, horrific eight months or so. Here is a list of what my family and I have gone through:

- diagnosed with breast cancer stage 3 in March 2014
- got my own cancer team and officially diagnosed April 16 (my bday)
- chemotherapy began May 2014 ( two rounds completed. Heart problems)
- lost my hair May 2014
- bilateral mastectomy with lymphnode removal and expanders put in June 2014
- expanders filled every week from July 2014 to August 2014
- chemotherapy- four more rounds completed. Six rounds total completed
- lost my hair AGAIN. September 2014
- finished chemo October 31, 2014
- radiation November 2014. 33 rounds everyday for six weeks
- last RADS January 19, 2015

Listing everything that has happened- and I did not list my other doctor's appts, therapy appts, heart tests, etc..  This is a huge WOW to me. In this nightmare Jarrod and I still try our hardest to maintain our family's normal routines.   School did not and will not get interrupted and softball did not get interrupted. We struggle sometimes- but we do it. We work as a team and keep the craziness going in our home. It has been super hard but we are keepin on- as a family unit!!  We are doing well. I am proud of us!!  There is alot more to do to get out of this nightmare but it will go away eventually. I hate the saying "my new normal" and " my journey." I have said it a few times and thought to myself- fuck that- this WILL NOT be my new normal and I will be damned if this is my journey. Going to Hawaii- now that is my journey- NOT cancer. Gagggg. Lol. I will not accept this cancer crap as my new normal. Instead I think of it as just getting through this nightmare and moving on. That is it!  I just do not have a title for my cancer yet.  I mean I do- it is called- This is some Fucked up Bullshit.. But I can't say that all the time. It is not fuckin lady like!  Lol.

All in all- we are getting by...  Eveything will be ok eventually. I have alot to look forward too so it helps me stay really focused on getting better. And I am too stubborn- I am not going anywhere!  I am gonna stay around to love my girls and my husband!

Again- thank you all!  We love you!!

Xoxo

Happy Bday JRod!!!

My rock, My husband, My friend, My homie, My soulmate,

My roommate, My counselor, My financial advisor, My shopping buddy,

My baby daddy ( 4 times!!), My love!!

Happy Birthday to the bestest husband ever. Thank you for ALWAYS being you!!!! 

I love you to the moon and back!

Christmas Camping Trip!!

We went camping over Christmas this year. The kids got to wake up and open their presents while overlooking the Pacific Ocean!  A beautiful site!!  But- we always gotta have some type of shit go wrong while campin with The Jacksons!!  Lol!  Lets just say Todd and Jrod looked like dorks outside workin on the trailor every night with their forehead lights on! It was so annoying not having the trailor not working.  By our last day though...it worked!  Ughhhhhh!  But like Cara says- it would not be a Robinson/Jackson camping trip without something breaking and or not working!!  Lol. Along with the trailor being difficult- I had to drive an hour back and fourth to radiation every day but Christmas. But I was not going to cancel our crazy ass camping trip because of my radiation. So I drove back and forth and then came back to camp each day. Sucked but oh well!!
All in all we had alot of fun!!  We camped with the Jackson Fam, had Mariah with all of us and the Denton Fam came down to hang with all of us too. We enjoyed wonderful food, weather, family and friends!!   It was nice to be with our family and celebrate our Christmas family traditions with the ones that we love!!  It really was an awesome camping trip!!  It was a great way to spend Christmas!  I am sooo thankful for my family and friends!!  Hopefully we will be able to take the trailor out alot more in 2015.
Thank you to all our family and to our BOSS Family for making our 2014 Christmas so great!!  Such wonderful memories made for the kids!!  And funny, cackling, pissy, amazing memories made for Jrod and I. Good food, good wine, good fam and friends..... That is what life is about!!  It is what keeps me going on strong!!!!!
Love you all!!!!
XO

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year to all our family and friends!  I hope 2015 is a wonderful year for everyone. Sooo much has happened in 2014 for my family. It is time for the Robinson Fam to have a better year!!  Through it all we still find a way to be grateful for our family and friends and grateful to be alive and kickin'.
Happy 2015!!