A Fun 4 Days!

Yo!!  I am almost three weeks into radiation. I am getting a bit more fatigued and starting to get a bit burned now. So here we go!!  I think the worse part of going every day is how damn depressing it is! This is a completely different atmosphere than my chemo days!  So I have to just go in and get the hell outta there as fast as I can!

This past weekend was really fun for me!  It was a great four days with Jarrod and the kids. It was my "old normal."  Jrod and I had date night on Saturday. We ate at our favorite restaurant, cackled, made fun of each other, cackled and shopped. It was awesome!  Just a really great time. Then Sunday was big time chore day around the house. Chase and Baylee helped out ALOT on Sunday to earn some Christmas money. I got out of chores and took the littles to the park for a bit. It was so beautiful outside!  I wore them out!!  It was so much fun. I used to take my kids to do alot of things alllll the time- but this past year I have been limited because of my dumb ass cancer crap. But this past Sunday I got to go experience my "old normal" of playing with my littles. Pushing them on the swings, going down the slides with them and just strollering them around the neighborhood without feeling like I am going to pass out!  It was an amazing feeling!!  I hope I have some more of that back in my life!!

Everything is good right now!!  We are one lucky family!!
Xoxo

Merry Effin Christmas Everyone!!

Merry Effin Christmas everyone!  Come on... You know you wanna say that sometimes- so I am helping you out and saying it first!  Lol. Christmas is ridiculously stressful and on top of it I am doing radiation EVERYDAY!   So it is cray cray over here. But seriously- people are a-holes during this time of year. They loose all perspective on the the meaning of the season. This time of year I loose all hope in humanity- well all year I feel this way- but even more during this wonderful holly- jolly merry- Christmas- season filled with assholes and bread pudding!!!! Yaaaay!!

Ok- well I love Christmas- but only to spend meaningful time with my family and friends. But I do hate a-holes!  Lol. This year I started shopping for the kiddos in October... Problem with that- ummmm I forgot what I bought because of chemo and because I hid all the crap from myself and so I bought more crap!   My excuse to spoil the crap out of the kids is- "I have cancer!!"  Lol. But do not think for one second that I have not complained about all the crap I bought for them and threatened to take all their junk back and not have Christmas this year. They know I am soooo lying and a "push over" lol. Oh ya- thanks Jrod for shuttin your mouth and just letting me buy crap. Super nice of you!  Lol.

Anyways- here is our family Christmas pix. I'm not sending out pixs in the mail. Sorry Charlies!!
No time!!  But enjoy the pix from your awesome computer screen!  Oh- and I kinda don't wanna pay for stamps!  I am a cheap broad!

Merry Effin Christmas!!

Xoxo
Us!!  The Robinson Fam

On to Radiation!

I started radiation yesterday. I spent about two hours laying on a hard board with a sheet under me with my gown down to my belly button, my head turned to the left and both arms over my head. I was told the whole two hours to just relax.  BWAHAHAAHAAAAHAA. Relax???  Ya.. Ok!   These nurses are funny!  So about an hour and a half into the simulation I had to pee. I had to go soooo bad that I almost just said eff it and peed on the table!  Lol. So I am yelling over the intercom to the techs and nurses in the other room while getting radiated. "Umm can anyone hear me??"  " I think I am gonna pee my pants!!!!"  So then they say back over the intercom, "You're almost done with your treatment just hold it."  And then I say, " NO- I AM GONNA PEE All OVER THIS TABLE!"  And I was about to cry lol. So they came in the room, let me off to pee. Whew!!  That would of been a mess for them lol. Then back on I went to finish my simulation and treatment.

One thing that sucks really bad is that my left boob has had to get deflated ( 500cc deflated!) in order to do radiation. I had to do this because they do not want any " good tissue" to be in the beam and get radiated and damaged. So this morning I went in to see my plastic surgeon with Stella and Skylar and got my boob completely deflated. It is soo gross. Lol. Looks like a damn prune. I am not putting a picture up for you all- it would scare all your asses lol. But- it is temporary. Once I am finished with radiation then I will fill that mutha back up!  So if you see me roamin the streets- yes- I have one boob right now and am completely aware that the other is missing. So thanks in advance!  Lol
The only side effects that should appear are either a dark tan, and or peeling and or redness to the radiated area. But I am on it. Already putting crap all over the radiated area- per Doctor's orders!

I get radiation for 33 treatments. So everyday Monday through Friday with weekends off. Because of the holidays coming up I will be doing treatments on a few weekends because they will be closed on the holidays. So time to get this next treatment plan. Done and over with!

Lots more to do after radiation but we are getting there!!  Some days are harder than others but then I am starting to have a " normal" day here and there and It helps... Alot!!!!

So time to get er done!!!!!


XOXO